plus belle

I hope that one day I can have a room like this.
like Belle.






What a great gift.

Bad attitude?

I'm feeling down.
I wish I could call Matt and talk to him.

I’m giving up on doing this alone now

I love seeing the way God is taking care of me. Its almost like He's saying "Aleesha, if you say this right now to this person it will open up a wonderful oportunity for you."

So I've been watching how everything is playing out and just relaxing and letting God do His thing and it has been a difficult and rewarding experience. I feel so much closer to God and so much safer with Him. I trust Him wholeheartedly (not an easy task, it's taken me 3 years to trust him) and I would encourage anyone who is holding back from Him to just take that step. Say to yourself "WHAT AM I WAITING FOR?" and answer that question.

Here's what God has done in my life since I've let him take over:

I have been wanting to move out for a while now just to get on my own and let myself grow. An obvious goal desired by young adults but not always tangible. I desired independence. Coincidentally I had to give up my independence in order to gain it. Yep, you heard right. I had to give up the thought process of "I know best" or "I can handle this myself" and just let God take care of it. Let Him lead me where He wants me, the best place for me.

I didn't want to give that up. I figured I could find a place to live on my own. How to go to school on my own. How to handle my relationships on my own. I found a place to live that was costing me $400 a month including food. A pretty good set up. I figured that would be perfect for me and that it must be from God because I decided that it was what I wanted. And obviously I know best. Well that didn't end up working out for me. I was very discouraged because my plan didn't work. So i started getting very frustrated and thinking that God mislead me and told me the wrong thing. Why would he give me this opportunity and then tell me no? What's His deal?

I wasn't listening. Well, I WAS listening but only to myself. Assuming that what I wanted is what God wanted. What crazy desciples we are. While I was reading the book or Mark I was SO frustrated with Jesus' desciples. I thought they were stupid. They never listened and just assumed everything and didn't trust Jesus although He has proven Himself to them time and time again. Just like He has with me.

Anyways, I finally just threw in the towel. I told God that I give up my independence. I know that my will is not what God intended for me. I also decided that that was ok. As I have said, He has proven Himself time and time again that He knows MUCH better than I do. And that very night that I said those words to Him BOOM I had a plan for a home. This IS where God wants me. The more I get into the more I see Him and how He has layed this all out so perfectly for me.

It always seems too easy, and I think this is why we try and make God's love so much more complicated than it needs to be -don't get me wrong, I dont believe loving sinners like us is an easy task- but here is all this Grace and all I have to do is accept it. All I have to do is let him take care of me. All I have to do is trust Him, like a child trusts their parent. What a beautiful relationship my God has set up for us.

I'll be seeing you.

Matt is going on a week long backpacking trip and I am going to miss him A LOT. I know a week isn't long, but he's my best friend (and not to mention cutest friend) of course I'll miss him. So him being gone for the next week got me thinking about when he was leaving for college almost four years ago. So here is the video I found and some pictures that I love and a few that just bring back tons of memories before Matt and I were... Matt and I. Enjoy :)



i'll be seeing you

W, aleesha MySpace Video
























I love you my dear and I hope you have a great trip.

True Friends.

I feel like I'm finally getting on the right path to finding true friends.
In the past I have had the hardest time finding friends that will be there for me. Friends that won't leave at the first sign of trouble. I never understood why it was so hard for me to find good friends. Then I started to realize that its hard for everyone, some people just choose to stay with the bad ones. I'm not sure if it's for fear of not having a friend anymore or that we're afraid of not being accepted somewhere else. I'm glad that I gave up my old friendships and I don't feel that it is cold or heartless for me to say that. My growth as a person and in God was being stunted. The friendships actually brought me more sadness that happiness. Now that I have accepted that I need to look deeper than "hey, we have the same interests" to find a good friend. And I'm ok with that, because the family I have built around myself is so loving, caring, and always there for one another. I don't feel like I'm in a battle anymore, and that feels great!

My deepest awareness of myself

I am deeply loved by Jesus Christ and I have done nothing to earn or dererve it.





What are you afraid of?
Who shall separate you from the love of Christ?





A lot of the time I like to think of Jesus as the hero of time (without the blonde hair and blue eyes and slap on a big nose)

Can't wait

I am so proud of Matt.
He found out that God was calling him to be a youth pastor. But what makes me REALLY proud of him is that he's following that calling.

He's an amazing man and he'll do great things.
I can't wait to see what's in store for us.





I wonder what it's like to be a pastor's wife?