Excitement overpowering fear

You know, I expected to cry when I graduated.
I didn't.

I also expected this gut wrenching fear of moving out and having all this change in my life.
I'm not.



I am so incredibly excited for the things coming up this fall!
I get to be a leader to some of the coolest kids around and teach them about Jesus.
I get to see them love, hurt, and triumph.
Hopefully I also get to help them through that process.
Something I wish I would of had at that time.

I am also moving in with one of the coolest ladies I know!


I am very blessed.

One year of living biblically

I saw this posted on a friends facebook today and found it incredibly interesting.I will definitely buy his book when I get the money.



I don't agree with him on everything he has said obviously but I thought what he did was incredibly interesting and definitely worth reading about. I dont think that the old laws still apply in today because I believe that after Jesus died on the cross for us we no longer had to give sacrifices and have all of those laws. I also believe that a lot of laws were also made up by the Pharisees so that they wouldn't break the true laws that God had laid down for them - the ten commandments. I understand that we all don't share the same beliefs and that is fine.I just feel that this is something that anyone could appreciate.

I love her bangs and makeup.


I'm thinking I need a hair cut

Relationships

Relationships are the most difficult thing we have to deal with in my opinion. Relationships with God, parents, siblings, friends, and significant others (married, dating, or crush) can be so time consuming, rewarding, and sometimes hurtful. Why do we take the risk of letting someone love us? Why do we take the risk of loving someone else? I would say that keeping up a good healthy relationship with anyone is difficult. We are all broken and it seems that mixing broken things with more broken things would be a bad idea. Well, I think it is. That's why we need God in all of our relationships. He is love. And He is the glue that holds us all together. No matter how much of a yard sale (mess) we are.

Here are a few of my favorite bible verses on love and friendship.
I get a lot out of these verses every time I read them so maybe they will do the same for you.

• Colossians 3:14
  And over all these virtues put on love, which binds them all together in perfect unity
  
• 1 Peter 4:8
  Above all, love each other deeply, because love covers over a multitude of sins.
  
• 1 John 4:8
  Whoever does not love does not know God, because God is love.
  
• 1 John 4:18
  There is no fear in love. But perfect love drives out fear, because fear has to do with punishment. The one who fears is not made perfect in love

Perspective

I'm sitting on the couch downstairs watching gilmore girls - a personal favorite of mine - and thinking about what I am going to need to buy before moving out. I'm feeling a little bit nervous about it all. But thankfully the excitement is overpowering the nerves. I'm thankful to everyone that has been keeping me in their prayers and has been helping me out. I really do appreciate it and you all are a big part of my life.

A day of frustration.

It really annoys me when people get angry with me about my seizures.
I'm sorry that this disorder of mine is an inconvenience for you, I'll try and do better next time?

UGH! I dont get what people expect me to do.
Believe it or not... It's more difficult for me to deal with than you.

Sorry for whining. I just needed to vent my frustrations.
I promise I'm not like this all the time.

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Anyways, that good points:
I got to relax with Matt last night after he got home from his backpacking trip, it was really nice to have him to talk with again. I'm a very emotional, sensative, and talkative person and he seems to be the only one that can calm me down. He helps me be a better me. Also, Matt was sweet enough to bring me the next book in the searious I'm reading "An echo in the darkness" by Francine Rivers. I am so blessed to have someone so thoughtful.





This past week I have been thinking a lot about college. Yes or no? what do I want to do? Well, I know I want to write. I also know that I want to do art. I would love to be a children's book illustrator and author. Or I could write novels and do art and possibly sell it (if I get good enough). What a wonderful thing that would be for me. Just to sit in my own creativity and inspire and touch people that I don't even know. Art and Literature....

I'm thinking double major :)

Watching the sun fade...

It has been a beautiful couple days of thunderstorms.


I suppose there is something comforting about having a nice home to stay in and watch the beauty unfold. The flash of light and the echoing boom... it's relaxing.Talking about the weather always seems like the thing you say when you don't know what else to say, I believe that weather leaves us out of breath and for me, speechless - if we take the time to notice it. And now I am watching the sun fade to darkness... enclosing us in shades of pink, purple and blue. Oh what a wonderful world...