A game of good news, bad news.

I was let go about a month ago from the credit union because I had epilepsy and wasn't able to show up one day. Ever since then I have become nervous and ashamed. Whenever I had to tell someone about it I just wanted to cry because I felt embarrased that I had been fired. Embarrased that I had failed. But no matter how many times I replayed it in my head, trying to think of how I could of kept that job, I realize I couldn't of. There was nothing I could do different.

I then struggle with the fact that I am different. That although I am working just as hard as Billly and Sally could mean nothing because I might not be able to make it in to work the next day. I can't stay up all night and go to class the next morning and still be able to function. My disability has always been a joke to me, something about myself that can make me and others laugh. Sometimes I struggled with things being harder, but I still figured that other people had generally the same struggles. I am starting to realize that I am different... and that most people won't understand.

For a while I didn't want to think badly about the managers that would give me a hard time about it in the work place because I simply thought that they just didn't understand it. That my family and friends thought it was wrong because they were able to see the way that epilepsy has effected my life. But now I am starting to realize that it truly isn't ok. I can't understand why it would be ok to fire someone for a health problem that they have. I told my neurologist what had happened with my job at the credit union and he advised me to sue. I have been mulling it over a bit and am still unsure what to do. I feel that it would be hard to prove that they fired me because of my disability but another part of me feels like I would at least get some publicity to help the next kid so they don't have to deal with this. But at the same time I want to be loving and forgiving.

Right now the phrase "What would Jesus do?" is more confusing than ever.




Now onto the good news!

While at the doctors office my Neurologist Dr. Varma informed me that there was a scholarship for students with epilepsy and that with the story that I have that I have a great shot at getting it. Who knows, maybe this could help me learn to just give it all to God.

College

College in the fall.



I guess that will make me a weeb


Majors to choose from:

English (creative writting), Graphic Arts, Photography


Anyone have a three sided coin?